When your world feels like it has broken into a million pieces, it seems impossible to even begin to attempt to put any of the pieces back together. This past year or so has felt like everything is shattering and that nothing is being put back together. I’m not really sure if that makes me just a really pessimistic person or just unfortunate. In the past year all three of my pets have died, I’ve gotten deferred from what my parents tell me should be my number 1 school, someone extremely close to me is suffering from some pretty scary health issues, and at some points I feel I’ve been rotting away mentally. Wow, I feel like I’m talking to my therapist right now…
But anyways, the point of sharing all that is not for any sort of pity or just because I’m an over-sharer; the purpose is to establish the foundation for why I feel like there are so many cracks in my life. However, to finally bring in some positivity, as a result of trying to piece back together my shattered heart and mind, I have gotten extremely close to some of my friends and family in ways that I can confidently say would not have been able to occur without this terrible past year. There was no physical gold glue, and I can’t even say that everything is glued back together yet, but the work in progress is definitely there. Some cracks are being painted as we speak with the beautiful gold sealant, consisting of the amazing support and over pouring love I receive from those closest to me. Even though at times when I feel like the cracks have been fixed, it begins to start breaking apart again, but that’s okay. What was born as a result of all the brokenness was a new true sense of who I am, who I want to be, and who I should be surrounding myself with. Even though I would never wish for any of the terrible things that have happened in my life to happen again, I genuinely don’t know where I’d be without them. I know how cliche, but truly I mean it.
I feel like that was a bit sappy, so here are some really good songs to just vibe to and relax:
Pluto Projector - Rex Orange County
Stars - Grace Potter & The Nocturnals
Mr. Rager - Kid Cudi
Good Days & Drew Barrymore - Sza
Consideration - Rihanna & Sza
On the complete other end of the spectrum, here are some fun songs that I may or may not blast in the shower:
Lucky - Britney Spears
Potential Breakup Song - Aly & Aj
The Boy is Mine - Brandy & Monica
Heat Waves - Glass Animals
Easy - Troye Sivan & Kacey Musgraves
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