This school year I have learned more about myself as an individual than I have all of the rest of high school combined. I made decisions that were really difficult but necessary, I reflected on who I wanted to keep in my life and who I didn’t, I found out a lot of bad news, I found of a little bit of good news, and I would not be even close to the person I am right now without this past year. For better or for worse. If I were to still be surrounded with the same people in the same environment as last school year, I have no idea who I would be as a person. Well actually I do but it’s a fake masked version of who I thought I needed/wanted to be that was quite literally the opposite of who I am.
I feel like this past year has been 10 seconds long yet 20 years at the same time. The amount of emotional growth and realizations I’ve had during quarantine and not being in school has been wild, and it hurts me to think that leaving high school can’t really continue this. Not to sound all privileged and complain about a first world problem, but I’m going to Michigan State, and I never in a million years would have pictured myself ending up there. Freshman year Lauren could, but not senior Lauren. It makes me sad to think that I thought high school was holding me back, and now when I finally thought college would be my saving grace, I’m basically entering the thirteenth grade. Crazy.
High school as a whole is an absolute rollercoaster and I’ve had my fair share of highs and lows. Every year of high school feels like a different season of a tv show to me. I had the same main characters, but the side characters and plots for the seasons could not have been more different. Somehow high school managed to give me the gifts of both the funnest times of my life, and a full novel of things to tell my therapist.
Without all of the wild experiences high school has provided me, I would not have been able to grow as a person and really get to see who I am today compared to who I was at the beginning. Also try to imagine going through high school with two other people your age living in your household, being in one of the most competitive feeling high schools, and having parents who fuel that competitive nature and comparisons! Wow! Pick a poison girl! Everything under the sun seems to happen throughout high school, and even though I basically have missed over a year of it, too much to remember has happened. I’ve taken different parts of every year of high school and glued them all together to formulate the person I am today, and even though some parts were really rough, I can’t thank it enough for making me myself.
This is my second year doing blogs for english class, and I’m truly going to miss doing them so much. I won’t miss blogs about actual school stuff but the blogs where I can just rant (most of them oops) and get out some opinions and feelings are very therapeutic. I’ve also developed so much style in my writing and have been better able to articulate my thinking as a result of these blogs which I am beyond thankful for!
So now to not get off on too far of a tangent, let’s sum up what I have learned. I’ve learned that the competitive nature of high school and what I thought needed to be priorities did not matter at all, I learned how to see things from a million different perspectives and lenses, I learned how to figure out what I’m passionate about and enjoy, and lastly I learned how to take the trials and tribulations of high school and turn them into learning moments to better myself not only as a student but also as a person. I mean, not everything can be like High School Musical, but high school wasn't all that bad.
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